transparency & firsts...

hello to those who read...
i am about to inundate you once again...pictures and more pictures...i love taking them, editing, and sharing... therapeutic kindof...stress dissapates while editing because it a creative outlet that does not require me to decide something hard...like how many yards of fabric to ship across the country or how many tees you all may want to buy for the whole season...in the midst of editing i may forget that it's been a rough week and that there are 76 huge boxes coming this week and that it might just be stressful on that day...
with editing, i get to decide whether it is important to take the red out of the picture, whether it needs to be blurred, or cropped...or just sharpened....saturated?? how fun...with the undo button at my disposal, really there are no consequences to my decisions...just a wait and see....much easier than my work decisions or the reprocussions of life decisions. much less stressful...so it is welcomed and as a result you are inundated...sigh!!

these are of mia's first real haircut...not just a trim...she wanted to have hair "juss like mommy"...so we chopped it to short and we love it!! it fits her "juss like mommy" funky attitude too...






























and logan's first basketball game...he did a wonderful job and the bulls won!!




























so i have talked to several people after the last post...it is apparent that it hit home with some of you....a list of questions for God...most that require real-deal answers...ones that just won't go away. so i say seek, like i am, define your questions and pray for answers- or just cry out to God when you cannot pray ...asking for clear answers...so that you may have peace...and maybe he will give you enough peace until you can understand or enough peace because you will never get to understand...at least not soon.

my posts have been transparent lately (well...they always are i guess)...i think those of us who are passionate seek the very deepest connection with God and with man...i am not content with loving half-heartedly and letting life pass by...and so diving into life is not always the smoothest of rides...
but as far as being passionate...i wouldn't trade it because whatever my road i am sure to feel it deeply and appreciate it greatly....another reason why i share.....

lots of love to bebek and sam...you are both so strong...